So my car decided not to pass any emissions checks this year. I still drive it occasionally, but I've come to the realization that I need a new car. I've decided, I'm going to get another Prelude, like the one I used to drive. I'm tired of not living my life.
Things in the works?
I'm trying to build something big. Me and a few friends have this dream of setting up our own sustainable community. Not necessarily all hippy like, but just a place where we can escape from the system as is. Not sure if it will take off.
I'm going to try very hard this year to get into a Disney internship. Probably Orlando, maybe LA. That is my goal for next Summer.
Relationship status? Non existent. I don't really care. I'm actually kinda happy and content now. The only thing I wish I had never done was take her back. But now, I know how it is, so it was worth something.
Writing? Still writing. Not as much as I would like.
Thats it. Adios folks
Monday, May 28, 2012
Friday, April 20, 2012
Liberal Soldier: Ex-Exes
I've heard it numerous times. I didn't pay attention. Oh well, I think it was a lesson learned. Here is the short and skinny of it.
Firstly, lemme say, since my last post (like 9mos ago) I've ETS'd out of the Guard. I'm now just a regular dude. Without a doubt that is great.
Okay...so...where to begin? I'm going to sound idiotic for this no matter how I put it, so I'll just spill the beans. For about 6 mos; from September until about now, I was dating my former ex. Yes, the one that dumped me three days into leave some four years ago.
For whatever reason, she had an epiphany, and came to realize I was the one for her. She loved me. Etc. For whatever reason, I decided to believe her. I really do blame myself entirely for this.
So for about eight months we were talking to one another, and five-six of those months, we were together again. Weekends away. Shopping. New laptop. We even started a business together.
Then, around March, she started to get really sick. Nothing serious, just allergies. So, after the first week of that month, I really didn't see her. Lord knows I tried. I remember going over to her house to pick up inventory (for the business); and she sent her brother out to get it. It kinda pissed me off.
But I had more important things to worry about. I had finals coming up; and I thought we were strong enough to last through a small month of little/no-contact. I've always heard that distance makes the heart grow fonder. I think that only applies if there is actually love involved.
No...instead, things just got worse. To the point that my Birthday was one week-long argument. We ended up going out to eat, no Birthday Sex. To me, that was a big sign something was wrong. I thought that maybe she needed a slight break from me, or something. I wasn't sure what was going on with her. So I broke up with her on Tuesday.
By Wensday I was sad. We had a small fight. I apologized on Thursday morning, and gave her some space. Today, I was checking the Facebook account for the business. I still would retain my 20% equity; though we no longer did photos/photo-shoots together. I think she got pissed off because...I dunno...I suppose I was some kind of golden cash cow for her. I'd go do all this work, she would edit some 100 photos, and we would both get like 25 usd.
It was fine, but I didn't want to do that if we were broken up. It wasn't that I didn't want her to make money or something. I just didn't want to be used in such a manner.
Anyhow, so I get onto the account to check the Facebook for the other aspect of the business. Through this account, I'm still able to look at her Facebook account. Her status message? "I'm so lucky to have him."
WHAT...IN...THE...HOLY...FUCK...??? Roger?
So she has gone through the mourning phase straight into the 'moving on phase'. I expected her to do something like that...literally...less than twenty-four hours...
I honestly don't know if she was cheating on me. I don't think it was physical, but whoever this guy was...she was contacting him I guess through-out April. So...emotional...
I was a bit mad tonight over that. But I've come to realize, once again, I should only be mad at myself. I gave this stupid trashy cheating bitch a second chance. And cheating as an adjective isn't a misnomer or hyperbole. She cheated on me while I was in Iraq. I can assume she was doing the same thing for all of the six months.
I am a verified idiot. Maybe it was Karma.
Firstly, lemme say, since my last post (like 9mos ago) I've ETS'd out of the Guard. I'm now just a regular dude. Without a doubt that is great.
Okay...so...where to begin? I'm going to sound idiotic for this no matter how I put it, so I'll just spill the beans. For about 6 mos; from September until about now, I was dating my former ex. Yes, the one that dumped me three days into leave some four years ago.
For whatever reason, she had an epiphany, and came to realize I was the one for her. She loved me. Etc. For whatever reason, I decided to believe her. I really do blame myself entirely for this.
So for about eight months we were talking to one another, and five-six of those months, we were together again. Weekends away. Shopping. New laptop. We even started a business together.
Then, around March, she started to get really sick. Nothing serious, just allergies. So, after the first week of that month, I really didn't see her. Lord knows I tried. I remember going over to her house to pick up inventory (for the business); and she sent her brother out to get it. It kinda pissed me off.
But I had more important things to worry about. I had finals coming up; and I thought we were strong enough to last through a small month of little/no-contact. I've always heard that distance makes the heart grow fonder. I think that only applies if there is actually love involved.
No...instead, things just got worse. To the point that my Birthday was one week-long argument. We ended up going out to eat, no Birthday Sex. To me, that was a big sign something was wrong. I thought that maybe she needed a slight break from me, or something. I wasn't sure what was going on with her. So I broke up with her on Tuesday.
By Wensday I was sad. We had a small fight. I apologized on Thursday morning, and gave her some space. Today, I was checking the Facebook account for the business. I still would retain my 20% equity; though we no longer did photos/photo-shoots together. I think she got pissed off because...I dunno...I suppose I was some kind of golden cash cow for her. I'd go do all this work, she would edit some 100 photos, and we would both get like 25 usd.
It was fine, but I didn't want to do that if we were broken up. It wasn't that I didn't want her to make money or something. I just didn't want to be used in such a manner.
Anyhow, so I get onto the account to check the Facebook for the other aspect of the business. Through this account, I'm still able to look at her Facebook account. Her status message? "I'm so lucky to have him."
WHAT...IN...THE...HOLY...FUCK...??? Roger?
So she has gone through the mourning phase straight into the 'moving on phase'. I expected her to do something like that...literally...less than twenty-four hours...
I honestly don't know if she was cheating on me. I don't think it was physical, but whoever this guy was...she was contacting him I guess through-out April. So...emotional...
I was a bit mad tonight over that. But I've come to realize, once again, I should only be mad at myself. I gave this stupid trashy cheating bitch a second chance. And cheating as an adjective isn't a misnomer or hyperbole. She cheated on me while I was in Iraq. I can assume she was doing the same thing for all of the six months.
I am a verified idiot. Maybe it was Karma.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Down
Really not sure where I'm headed sometimes. Its been a few months since I posted. I really don't feel much of anything anymore.
I've returned to that point where I no longer have dreams. I barely remember the past, and I think its better that way. Every waking second is dedicated to becoming something, building something.
That much is good in life. I don't worry about life, or women. I sorta migrate from woman to woman, or have long hiatus without one (like now). It would be nice, but I don't feel any emotional need, just pure physical.
The only thing I worry, is that if I ever achieve my goals, what would I concentrate on?
I'm not sure if I'm repressing feelings, or if I really am this dedicated. I was always dedicated as a child, and a hard worker for things I believe in. Maybe that is what this is.
I've returned to that point where I no longer have dreams. I barely remember the past, and I think its better that way. Every waking second is dedicated to becoming something, building something.
That much is good in life. I don't worry about life, or women. I sorta migrate from woman to woman, or have long hiatus without one (like now). It would be nice, but I don't feel any emotional need, just pure physical.
The only thing I worry, is that if I ever achieve my goals, what would I concentrate on?
I'm not sure if I'm repressing feelings, or if I really am this dedicated. I was always dedicated as a child, and a hard worker for things I believe in. Maybe that is what this is.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Old Friends
This post is sort of a dedication to a few friends of mine. These guys have been friends with me since I was in High School, towards the Senior Year of it, and we've been good friends ever since. Girlfriends came and went. One friend's father died, and another lost his mother. One of us went into the army, another into the marines, now another two are joining (marines and navy).
I just would like to dedicate this blog space for electronic eternity to our unique friendship, and what its meant to me.
I dunno if you guys will read. I just wanted you guys to know that you've each profoundly affected my life.
I just would like to dedicate this blog space for electronic eternity to our unique friendship, and what its meant to me.
I dunno if you guys will read. I just wanted you guys to know that you've each profoundly affected my life.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
What is Rich?
I was just cruisin' around on the internet, looking at information on taxes. When I came across this...post...blog...whatever...
250k
So apparently, in the Bay Area 250k is still middle class? If anyone is from the SF Bay, please, lemme know how this is.
I mean, hell in Georgia, you begin middle class at about 25k; and end it somewhere towards 100k. If you make 60k a year, your pretty set.
In this lady's argument, she makes the point that living expenses, housing, childcare, etc can firmly put 250k a year firmly in the realm of middle class. And unless the average starter home is worth close to a million, I just don't see this as realistic.
I do however, think that more stratification of 'higher' incomes needs to be done. There is a definite difference between 250,000 USD a year and 25,000,000 USD a year. I mean, whats a factor of two between friends? But I would like to reiterate, if your at the 250,000 USD level, you shouldn't expect a break when it comes to taxation, in my opinion.
I would also like to note that the brackets are cumulative. Every dollar you make below 250,000 will be taxed at its appropriated place. Every dollar above, will be taxed at the new level. So given this, I don't see any reason why the taxes on 250,000+ shouldn't go up.
Just Saying. I made 30k a year going to Iraq, and there were plenty of people who made 25k or less getting shot at over there.
250k
So apparently, in the Bay Area 250k is still middle class? If anyone is from the SF Bay, please, lemme know how this is.
I mean, hell in Georgia, you begin middle class at about 25k; and end it somewhere towards 100k. If you make 60k a year, your pretty set.
In this lady's argument, she makes the point that living expenses, housing, childcare, etc can firmly put 250k a year firmly in the realm of middle class. And unless the average starter home is worth close to a million, I just don't see this as realistic.
I do however, think that more stratification of 'higher' incomes needs to be done. There is a definite difference between 250,000 USD a year and 25,000,000 USD a year. I mean, whats a factor of two between friends? But I would like to reiterate, if your at the 250,000 USD level, you shouldn't expect a break when it comes to taxation, in my opinion.
I would also like to note that the brackets are cumulative. Every dollar you make below 250,000 will be taxed at its appropriated place. Every dollar above, will be taxed at the new level. So given this, I don't see any reason why the taxes on 250,000+ shouldn't go up.
Just Saying. I made 30k a year going to Iraq, and there were plenty of people who made 25k or less getting shot at over there.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Hey Folks
Man, I read over the stuff in this blog, and I can't believe I'm the same person, sometimes. Its funny how in the blink of an eye, you feel like you've changed very quickly. However, when you think about it, you realize that it wasn't so much a blink of an eye, nor was it really a change. Who we are really will beat out who we think we should be.
Where to begin?
I suppose I'll update my life as it is segmented, into civilian and military sections.
Military Life?
My military career is going no where. However, I don't feel bitter about that, I know that if I needed to, I could do what I need to do to get it jump-started. I've settled into the idea that my ETS will be my ETS. I want to move on to writing and working in film (see next section).
I love all of my military buddies, and will miss them so dearly. They've been with me through some of the worst times in my life, and some of my best. They never really stop trying to help you (sometimes too much); and my goal is to give back whenever I can to them. Right now, this mostly involves giving gas money, or helping somebody find somewhere to live in a Jam.
However, I think once I become stable, the USO will become one of the primary charities I give too. I won't say more on that, because I don't believe anyone should be high and mighty because they give. However, I think this is what the military has brought out most in me.
That being said I can't wait to be done. :)
Civilian Life?
Where my military side is lagging, my civilian side is picking up steam. I'm doing great in school, and I've finally found a major that really fits me like a glove. I decided to do film, and no...you cant talk me out of it. :)
I mean I recognize fully, that statistically, I'm more likely to end up doing something only arbitrarily related to film, but it never hurts to have dreams. I was always pretty good at setting goals and meeting them in the past, with only a few disastrous examples of when I didn't.
School is great though. I enjoy being back in Academia. I'm reading prolifically. This is noted by my use of the word prolifically. I use what I learn to spin of blogs (no, these aren't my only ones), specific niche blogs that I detail anything and everything that interests me.
So, when I'm not studying film or doing homework, I'm on the computer, working on my blogs, increasing monetization, hiring writers, all of that good stuff. When I run out of things to update for my domains (and its more like 'When I forget what I got online to Update') I switch over to a word document, and start blazing away on a series of short story projects that I'm working on, before I write my first novel & screen play.
Overall, life is good. I'm eating well. My studies are progressing in good manner, and I've gained a more manageable grasp of my finances. I expect to eliminate most of my debt with this year's tax return. At least going to wipe out 1000 USD of it (if my estimates are correct; thank god for earned income credit via tuition).
Personal Life?
Definitely an area that could need improvement. I've gone out with one girl since all began, and I quickly realized we didn't mesh. I've been talking with an awesome girl at school, but such is the case, she already has a boyfriend. :(
Generally though, they sound decent together, and I've never been the type to break up a couple. But she is a great friend in general, plus I talk to a few other girls who I can't remember right off the bat. Effie just sticks out because she is a cool girl, whom I can talk to about Aliens. :)
Now I wouldn't say my hang-ups with my previous failed relationship are resolved, I wouldn't go that far, but I can now say that they really no longer affect me on a daily, weekly, I might even say monthly. This came with a bit of a sad realization on my part about six months ago, when I was still talking to my ex-fiance.
I stumbled upon enough information to realize that at the beginning of our relationship, she was incredibly focused on another person. At the end of our relationship, she was cheating on me. I feel like a fell into a pit trap, and I was just too far down to realize it wasn't normal.
Either way, after I discovered this, I tried to remain friends with her on some grounds. But its very funny. In the same way she did what she did to me, she does the same to other people, I think. It's not cool, and not healthy/safe for her. I came to a point where I realized I didn't like the person she is (and I think, always will be), and I really didn't care one way or another for her anymore.
Thinking about it like that, it made all too much sense to stop talking to her, and I've done good on that for a few months now. I can honestly say I don't want that to change.
Summation?
Wow, I realize now that this is probably my most personal blog. Yeah. I think thats because I find it easier to confide in my brothers in arms than I do anyone else.
Summary? Life is great! I really hope (and genuinely mean) that all of your lives are going well too! If they aren't; don't fret about it. Don't worry, just keep your heads up!
Where to begin?
I suppose I'll update my life as it is segmented, into civilian and military sections.
Military Life?
My military career is going no where. However, I don't feel bitter about that, I know that if I needed to, I could do what I need to do to get it jump-started. I've settled into the idea that my ETS will be my ETS. I want to move on to writing and working in film (see next section).
I love all of my military buddies, and will miss them so dearly. They've been with me through some of the worst times in my life, and some of my best. They never really stop trying to help you (sometimes too much); and my goal is to give back whenever I can to them. Right now, this mostly involves giving gas money, or helping somebody find somewhere to live in a Jam.
However, I think once I become stable, the USO will become one of the primary charities I give too. I won't say more on that, because I don't believe anyone should be high and mighty because they give. However, I think this is what the military has brought out most in me.
That being said I can't wait to be done. :)
Civilian Life?
Where my military side is lagging, my civilian side is picking up steam. I'm doing great in school, and I've finally found a major that really fits me like a glove. I decided to do film, and no...you cant talk me out of it. :)
I mean I recognize fully, that statistically, I'm more likely to end up doing something only arbitrarily related to film, but it never hurts to have dreams. I was always pretty good at setting goals and meeting them in the past, with only a few disastrous examples of when I didn't.
School is great though. I enjoy being back in Academia. I'm reading prolifically. This is noted by my use of the word prolifically. I use what I learn to spin of blogs (no, these aren't my only ones), specific niche blogs that I detail anything and everything that interests me.
So, when I'm not studying film or doing homework, I'm on the computer, working on my blogs, increasing monetization, hiring writers, all of that good stuff. When I run out of things to update for my domains (and its more like 'When I forget what I got online to Update') I switch over to a word document, and start blazing away on a series of short story projects that I'm working on, before I write my first novel & screen play.
Overall, life is good. I'm eating well. My studies are progressing in good manner, and I've gained a more manageable grasp of my finances. I expect to eliminate most of my debt with this year's tax return. At least going to wipe out 1000 USD of it (if my estimates are correct; thank god for earned income credit via tuition).
Personal Life?
Definitely an area that could need improvement. I've gone out with one girl since all began, and I quickly realized we didn't mesh. I've been talking with an awesome girl at school, but such is the case, she already has a boyfriend. :(
Generally though, they sound decent together, and I've never been the type to break up a couple. But she is a great friend in general, plus I talk to a few other girls who I can't remember right off the bat. Effie just sticks out because she is a cool girl, whom I can talk to about Aliens. :)
Now I wouldn't say my hang-ups with my previous failed relationship are resolved, I wouldn't go that far, but I can now say that they really no longer affect me on a daily, weekly, I might even say monthly. This came with a bit of a sad realization on my part about six months ago, when I was still talking to my ex-fiance.
I stumbled upon enough information to realize that at the beginning of our relationship, she was incredibly focused on another person. At the end of our relationship, she was cheating on me. I feel like a fell into a pit trap, and I was just too far down to realize it wasn't normal.
Either way, after I discovered this, I tried to remain friends with her on some grounds. But its very funny. In the same way she did what she did to me, she does the same to other people, I think. It's not cool, and not healthy/safe for her. I came to a point where I realized I didn't like the person she is (and I think, always will be), and I really didn't care one way or another for her anymore.
Thinking about it like that, it made all too much sense to stop talking to her, and I've done good on that for a few months now. I can honestly say I don't want that to change.
Summation?
Wow, I realize now that this is probably my most personal blog. Yeah. I think thats because I find it easier to confide in my brothers in arms than I do anyone else.
Summary? Life is great! I really hope (and genuinely mean) that all of your lives are going well too! If they aren't; don't fret about it. Don't worry, just keep your heads up!
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Update
Finally, back in school. Things are going well for me.
I might be buying a vending business to; so...things are looking really up. My company is shooting a short film, and this may or may not be the project that launches me to fame. At this point though, I just enjoy making amatuer film. Next semester Im taking a class on screen writing.
After some insecurity, I've decided my best option is not to continue in the Guard. I have some issues with credit that will make it hard to maintain my security clearance; and I may work to fix them up, there are other issues which will probably cause me to lose it.
So I'd rather go out on a good note, than have something bad happen. So I think I will just let it slip away next year.
I will keep this blog up for the last year of my enlistment, and continue posting. However, my last post, I promise you, no matter where Im at, will be on January 11th; 2012. After that, I'll be through.
But hey, we still have a year (plus) worth of me ranting about crazy drivers, the Army, and remembrances of the little part I played in our nation's history. I hope you guys enjoy it.
I might be buying a vending business to; so...things are looking really up. My company is shooting a short film, and this may or may not be the project that launches me to fame. At this point though, I just enjoy making amatuer film. Next semester Im taking a class on screen writing.
After some insecurity, I've decided my best option is not to continue in the Guard. I have some issues with credit that will make it hard to maintain my security clearance; and I may work to fix them up, there are other issues which will probably cause me to lose it.
So I'd rather go out on a good note, than have something bad happen. So I think I will just let it slip away next year.
I will keep this blog up for the last year of my enlistment, and continue posting. However, my last post, I promise you, no matter where Im at, will be on January 11th; 2012. After that, I'll be through.
But hey, we still have a year (plus) worth of me ranting about crazy drivers, the Army, and remembrances of the little part I played in our nation's history. I hope you guys enjoy it.
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